the future

i thought about putting miracle grow in my hair today, or watering it with plant food. i wonder what that would do...has anyone ever tried that? 

i'm also trying online banking because i really don't even know how much i got paid. too bad i'm a failure at everything...including online banking.

i'm really tired of all my clothes. i'm going to use all the money i have (once i found out how much i actually have from online banking) and use it on new clothes. there is a good idea, even though i need so many other things like say a car. hmm. 

also, my mom asked me today why i never talk to her and i told her because i have nothing to say to her, since everything i say is mean or wrong apparently. then she told me that i should move out for a couple of weeks so i can appreciate home. i'm thinking about it. just when and where is all i have to know. 

i have nothing else to say. i don't have much to say these days actually. maybe because i've decided not to care about anything at all. i've given up on most things.